I have always been a bit clumsy, but it seems like lately there has been a rash of breakages and losses in our house. From the broken serving bowls a couple of weeks ago, lost cell phone and charger (finally found after three weeks) and other miscellaneous things, to today when I broiled the bread rising in the oven, along with the mixing bowl ($50 to replace) and plastic wrap covering it.
This brings up so many emotions ... fear of rejection, frustration, hopelessness, anger ... I don't even know how to respond. What are You showing me in this, Lord? I feel helpless on the outside, and with every break and loss I feel more lost and broken on the inside. So I am coming to You to be mended, healed, and found. Please help me.
Justin is singing on my iPod right now. Singing about God enjoying you just as you are. About it not being based on performance or things that I can do.
ReplyDelete"What a removing of the tensions
From the deepest place of my heart
To know that you love me
Just as I am
And I cannot earn a thing."
I need to hear it just as much as you do.
I love you very much.
Oh, that's tough. I broke many, many dishes with each pregnancy! Hang in there!
ReplyDeletePoor Michelle! I'm sure no one thinks less of you... and you know your Abba adores you. It's not as if you are intentionally doing anything wrong. If He is the One leading you down this path of family growth, He also has the grace to cover your areas of weakness and human frailty in the midst of it.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Monica and Charlotte. Thankfully we haven't had any major disasters since then, just minor ones. :)
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